At this specific moment in time, I am thinking that I just may be done having children. A few things have brought me to this decision. (Obviously, if we are meant to have more, then we will) but RIGHT NOW, I feel that I am done. That the reason we havent been blessed with anymore, is that I dont think I can handle it. I LOVE my children with every fiber of my being, and would LOVE to have at least one more, but I think Heavenly Father has other plans for me and my lil family. I get stressed Super easily, and frustrated just as bad. I try to do things to make me less stressed and frustrated, sometimes it works and sometimes it doesnt. Maybe Im just having one of those days. I dunno. You know how some people KNOW that there is more children waiting to come down and that they are'nt done yet? Well, Im not one of those people. I havent felt like there are more children to come in to our family. I havent felt anything. We've been trying for 10 months now and to no avail. And so it brings me to think that this is it. Which I am incredibly grateful for. For the most amazing children in the world. I love them so much. And for the opportunity Ive had to bare children.
Sorry, I just needed to vent.
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I was never one of those people that felt like there were kids waiting to come down to me either. And yes, you are so blessed to have the kids you have!
TOTALLY understand!!! I want maybe one or two more and that is it. With having ADD it has been so hard being at home and getting things done an organized (I recently got back on Adderall because I was so frustrated and it has done wonders). You know whats right for you, nobody else! Sometimes just making the decision to be done is the hardest part, then after it is almost a weight off your shoulders. Vent all you want I understand.
I'm in the same boat as you. We haven't been trying to have another baby or anything, but my husband just says we're done. We'll see! I'm just greatful for my 2 boys that I do have. I wouldn't care if they were all I get!
You are super blessed to have two healthy, smart, adorable boys. You are a great mommy and you should just focus on raising those 2 bundels of energy for now. You are doing great Carlie :)
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